ayidHIMSELF
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Ayid Bin Atang
16/09/88
ayiddeftone@gmail.com(MSN)
Bishan, Singapore






Sk8onix
Ahm
Ayul Vanquish
Hann gile berbisa darah hitam
Mansur
Shammy


Alyy
Linda
Lynn Souxie
Nina
Nisa
OuhhMiMiN
Sabby
Sharon
Sheeqeen


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June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
December 2009
January 2010
March 2010

im thinking if i should request for a bunk or stay out..
hmmmm.. doesnt make any diff either way..

6:46 AM

finally added songs to my blog..
2 songs acctually..
and its embedded somewhere u cant see..
so no matter how irritating it is.. you have to bear with it.. xD

I saw her face & I can't escape by A Vain Attempt.
nice.. :)
currently addicted to it.. xD

hear it!

7:13 AM

Went n followed my bro to buy his deck yesterdae..
cool combination..
grey powell minilogo deck
destructo lopez trucks
abec 9 momentum bearings
powell mini logo wheels
independent risers

just got to know tensor titanium just came to singapore
should have waited siaaaaaa..
purple some more..
im still thinking if i wanna buy a new deck or change grip tape..

2:50 AM

hey its our 1 mth anniversary of break off.. happy anniversary.. here's a post for ya.. hope you enjoy it.. since you love having attention from me.. :)

regretted even msging you..
maybe i shouldnt even bother..
shouldnt even follow my emotion..
world is so much fun when i minimized my emotion..

since u want a guy who finished serving the nation.. go find one..
you dont know what it feels like having limited time off..
yea u work shift.. but atleast u have all your time after or before work..
for me i have only the friday LATE afternoon. the whole saturday and back to camp somewhere in the afternoon.. thats freakin only 48 hours.. and dont forget i need to sleep.. so 48 minus 16 (2 days of sleep) and thats 32 hours..
(need me to minus off the time where i couldnt see you bcuz you need to go home at midnight too?)
what little shits can u do with 32 hours a week..
put yourself in my shoes for a change.. you should be lucky enough being able to even see me in my schedule..
too bad that we broke off when i able to be out everynight.. you just couldnt wait could you.. ohh sorry.. my bad..

secondly you state in your blog that i dont find you?..
was it my fault that you block me off from msn?
didnt i msg you goodnight msg once a blue moon?
so where were you all these while? :)
so was there a time that you even msged me first?
hmmmmmm.. let me check my hp... NONE.. it all started with my msg..
so stop shooting yourself..

thirdly so u are the only one angry? acctually i hated you.. its not that i am angry with you.. i wish we could have broke off on the 12th instead..
it was my pop i wanted you to be there. you slept thru it and didnt come..
my dad offered to pick u up and u didnt..
let me tell u a lil story abt that day.. something i kept quiet about..
my dad didnt know i was from N company..
so he didnt know exectly where i was at..
you did know which company im at..
so there was a part where loved ones put on the cap for us..
since my dad didnt know where i was at he cant put it on for me..
i wanted you to put it on for me but u wasnt there..
so while others loved ones put the cap on their son's head i put mine on myself..
how does it feel if it was u?
hope you are happy that you did that..
and im sure ull ask y say it now and didnt say it earlier?
if i were to tell you how i felt earlier im sure ull just say sorry and think that everything will be ok.. it happend and nothing can be done..
so y should i bother..

thats the same fucking reason y i had no mood to even see you on ur bdae..
i had no mood to fucking see ya on our shity relationship..
and also id rather be by myself on my bday..
and how was it breaking off 2 days after your bdae?
so what its the same for me.. it was ON my bdae.. the best gift ever..

i was so freakin happy that you asked our relationship to be off.. i freakin hate you.. I HATE YOU for not being there when i wanted you the most.. so dont fucking blame ns for me to change.. its not a choice.. it was never a choice from the start.. its a must.. you wouldnt know cuz u never go through it.. bitch..

hmm theres a barney bolster, picture frame with a bday msg.. a scrapbook with pics, a boxer a wallet in a rubbish bag.. so guess where is that bag now..

just when i wanted to forget abt everything and try to be nice.. you messed it all up again with your fucking ego msgs.. making me hate you even more.. so am i to be blamed for not replying you? you got what you definitely deserved..

if u want me to put all those things i hate about you here i could make my own storybook.. so 1 chapter is more than enough for today..

and guess what? you put all those shits abt me on ur blog and open for all your friends to read? i couldnt care less if they think im evil.. i really am ill admit it.. so now stop playing the role of an innocent victim.. cuz you are not..

yours truly,
ayid

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PART 2

finally had our skate tour..
been so long since we last had our..
always at skate park skate park and skate park.. xD

first started at bishan..
playd some steps b4 moving off to amk..
then we had our dinner at banquet..
skate to serangoon garden area..
then to hougang..
then to sengkang..
from sengkang we found out that there is no way further east except for goin tru the expressway..
obviously we are not allowed to skate on the express way..
so we skate back to hougang area then to upper serangoon road before turning into tampines road..
skate the whole stretch of tampines road b4 makin into old tampines road then to the tamp industrial estate and stright to tamp central just to catch the first bus back home..
tiring but fun journey.. xD
next time will be towards the western area of singapore.. haaaa..

so to summerize everything..
from bishan > ang mo kio > serangoon > hougang > sengkang > hougang > upper serangoon > tampines road > old tampines > tampines industrials > tamp central
aprox 120km in total (according to my gps) lol..

8:42 AM

human.. never satisfied with what they have.. always demanding more from others.. always troubling others..

6:40 AM

talked to the other dudes abt all of our past relatioships last night.
n i decided to atleast stay in talkin terms with her.
smsed her if she is still interested to talk.
all i wanted as a normal talk since i hadnt talk with ya for quite some time.
and somehow got a rather negative rply frm her.
then i gave my final n permanent goodbye.
decided to forget n shes gonna be totally out of my life by the end of today.
so dont go around and telling others i didnt care.
i tried to be nice and you slapped the words back to my face.
mayb i deserved but i dont care anymore.
this is the end of our little colouring storybook.

9:40 PM

Old song.. but....


ey bert.. this is a way nicer version than the original one.. xD


9:01 AM

wth is wrong with my luck?
my new psp got bricked?
like wtf..
it suddenly shutdown by itself and refuses to turn on again..
been a cursed month.. =/

5:55 AM

i cant believe i had tears for a while just now..
did i think of something i shouldnt??
guess not..
it must had been my sore eyes..

7:22 AM

wootz.. this is sooo freakin cool..
who need contacts if ya have eyes like this..
xD



2:20 AM

looking back at some pics that were taken within the last few years..
i kinda miss those times..
didnt have a care in the world and enjoying every minute of them..
yea i have to face the fact that everyting is ever changing and its hard to keep things the way they are/were..
regrets of leaving things behind and also finding new things to replace what we have left..
here are some pics that i dug up..

I miss my classmates.. my IT1A Classmates to be exact..
miss the outings we had together..
one of the happiest moment i had in my whole schooling life..
not having to worry about anything and enjoying those moments.. :)







Doing stupid flips at the center of random parks! i really do miss it..

Skating at my favorite skate spot (white house tpy)


Skating every thursday after school at queenstown..

My younger brother cool afro hair..

Having holidays during ghost hunting trips.. =x

My favorite deck with sticker designed by me.
(which is with eL and Shah.)

Working in my dream company. Cisco Systems.

Chilling with the ol dudes and besties.. :)

and the time where nothing goes wrong..


Bye ol times.. its time to move and live on..

6:20 AM

hari raye jackass



9:44 AM

got a sms from lynn souxie at 2+am

"never wish me happy bdae ? ):"

and purposely didnt rplyed it as we planned to sms her the bdae wish sometime where we guessed she was sleepin.. so we (me el and hann) sent her this msg at around 5+am

"Happy 15th Birthday Lynn aka Chax Souxie. May most of yur wish come true.Altho we sent tis msj late hoping to disturb your sleep, the stars in the sky reminds us of yu even tho there are no stars in the sky rite now.The moon is full and rainbows are colourfull. Traffik lights changes colours all the time except when it is spoilt, we must inform the traffik police and use the zebra crossing where there're no zebras are crossing the road wiv yu. we lerv yu too. [; (name)"

yea it didnt make any sense everyone knows that.. =x
(the rest was from el.. i only add the randoms..)
got home and uploadd the pics of the dae b4 on fb. and lynn pmmed me..

"sad sey no one ask me out on my birthday"

lol.. i was just planning to go watch phobia 2 alone and since she dont have any plans i asked her along.. sms/pm the rest of the crew and no lifeform were found.. the best is they replied only after the movie has ended.. lolx.. had my next stage of child hood and played some games at the arcade while waiting for bert and nina to reach yish.. and at the end of it all, at the taxi stand, I WON!!!!!! lol

went to meet bert, sham and nina at yis b4 goin to back to bishan to meet el hann and shah..
sadly i lost 2 fav things of mine.. a 2 mth old snowcap and 26 days old 16gb ipod nano.. :(

9:10 AM

Went raye with the rest of the sk8onix..
in sequence
1) lina's house
2) nina's house
3) my house
4) hann's house
5) the other lina's house
6) mimin's house

the theme for that dae was be yourself dae..
wear what you like.. its your own fashion.. xD

pics are up in fb.. add me http://www.facebook.com/ayid.himself

9:03 AM