Thursday, October 15, 2009
hey its our 1 mth anniversary of break off.. happy anniversary.. here's a post for ya.. hope you enjoy it.. since you love having attention from me.. :)
regretted even msging you..
maybe i shouldnt even bother..
shouldnt even follow my emotion..
world is so much fun when i minimized my emotion..
since u want a guy who finished serving the nation.. go find one..
you dont know what it feels like having limited time off..
yea u work shift.. but atleast u have all your time after or before work..
for me i have only the friday LATE afternoon. the whole saturday and back to camp somewhere in the afternoon.. thats freakin only 48 hours.. and dont forget i need to sleep.. so 48 minus 16 (2 days of sleep) and thats 32 hours..
(need me to minus off the time where i couldnt see you bcuz you need to go home at midnight too?)
what little shits can u do with 32 hours a week..
put yourself in my shoes for a change.. you should be lucky enough being able to even see me in my schedule..
too bad that we broke off when i able to be out everynight.. you just couldnt wait could you.. ohh sorry.. my bad..
secondly you state in your blog that i dont find you?..
was it my fault that you block me off from msn?
didnt i msg you goodnight msg once a blue moon?
so where were you all these while? :)
so was there a time that you even msged me first?
hmmmmmm.. let me check my hp... NONE.. it all started with my msg..
so stop shooting yourself..
thirdly so u are the only one angry? acctually i hated you.. its not that i am angry with you.. i wish we could have broke off on the 12th instead..
it was my pop i wanted you to be there. you slept thru it and didnt come..
my dad offered to pick u up and u didnt..
let me tell u a lil story abt that day.. something i kept quiet about..
my dad didnt know i was from N company..
so he didnt know exectly where i was at..
you did know which company im at..
so there was a part where loved ones put on the cap for us..
since my dad didnt know where i was at he cant put it on for me..
i wanted you to put it on for me but u wasnt there..
so while others loved ones put the cap on their son's head i put mine on myself..
how does it feel if it was u?
hope you are happy that you did that..
and im sure ull ask y say it now and didnt say it earlier?
if i were to tell you how i felt earlier im sure ull just say sorry and think that everything will be ok.. it happend and nothing can be done..
so y should i bother..
thats the same fucking reason y i had no mood to even see you on ur bdae..
i had no mood to fucking see ya on our shity relationship..
and also id rather be by myself on my bday..
and how was it breaking off 2 days after your bdae?
so what its the same for me.. it was ON my bdae.. the best gift ever..
i was so freakin happy that you asked our relationship to be off.. i freakin hate you.. I HATE YOU for not being there when i wanted you the most.. so dont fucking blame ns for me to change.. its not a choice.. it was never a choice from the start.. its a must.. you wouldnt know cuz u never go through it.. bitch..
hmm theres a barney bolster, picture frame with a bday msg.. a scrapbook with pics, a boxer a wallet in a rubbish bag.. so guess where is that bag now..
just when i wanted to forget abt everything and try to be nice.. you messed it all up again with your fucking ego msgs.. making me hate you even more.. so am i to be blamed for not replying you? you got what you definitely deserved..
if u want me to put all those things i hate about you here i could make my own storybook.. so 1 chapter is more than enough for today..
and guess what? you put all those shits abt me on ur blog and open for all your friends to read? i couldnt care less if they think im evil.. i really am ill admit it.. so now stop playing the role of an innocent victim.. cuz you are not..
yours truly,
ayid
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PART 2
finally had our skate tour..
been so long since we last had our..
always at skate park skate park and skate park.. xD
first started at bishan..
playd some steps b4 moving off to amk..
then we had our dinner at banquet..
skate to serangoon garden area..
then to hougang..
then to sengkang..
from sengkang we found out that there is no way further east except for goin tru the expressway..
obviously we are not allowed to skate on the express way..
so we skate back to hougang area then to upper serangoon road before turning into tampines road..
skate the whole stretch of tampines road b4 makin into old tampines road then to the tamp industrial estate and stright to tamp central just to catch the first bus back home..
tiring but fun journey.. xD
next time will be towards the western area of singapore.. haaaa..
so to summerize everything..
from bishan > ang mo kio > serangoon > hougang > sengkang > hougang > upper serangoon > tampines road > old tampines > tampines industrials > tamp central
aprox 120km in total (according to my gps) lol..
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